{"id":1076,"date":"2015-12-01T23:46:53","date_gmt":"2015-12-01T21:46:53","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/erdalbora.wordpress.com\/?p=1076"},"modified":"2020-03-29T22:36:35","modified_gmt":"2020-03-29T19:36:35","slug":"sevgi-sevgiyle-ogrenilir","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/erdalbora.com\/tr\/2015\/sevgi-sevgiyle-ogrenilir\/","title":{"rendered":"Sevgi Sevgiyle \u00d6\u011frenilir"},"content":{"rendered":"<p>[et_pb_section fb_built=&#8221;1&#8243; _builder_version=&#8221;3.22&#8243;][et_pb_row _builder_version=&#8221;3.25&#8243; background_size=&#8221;initial&#8221; background_position=&#8221;top_left&#8221; background_repeat=&#8221;repeat&#8221;][et_pb_column type=&#8221;4_4&#8243; _builder_version=&#8221;3.25&#8243; custom_padding=&#8221;|||&#8221; custom_padding__hover=&#8221;|||&#8221;][et_pb_text _builder_version=&#8221;4.4.1&#8243; background_size=&#8221;initial&#8221; background_position=&#8221;top_left&#8221; background_repeat=&#8221;repeat&#8221; hover_enabled=&#8221;0&#8243;]<em><div class='et-box et-info'>\n\t\t\t\t\t<div class='et-box-content'>Yaz\u0131y\u0131 okumadan \u00f6nce e\u011fer hen\u00fcz yapmad\u0131ysan\u0131z <a href=\"http:\/\/erdalbora.com\/tr\/2017\/sitedeki-yazilar-hakkinda\/\">bu yaz\u0131ya<\/a> bir kez g\u00f6z atman\u0131z\u0131 \u00f6neririm.<\/div><\/div>\u00a0<\/em><\/p>\n<p><img loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" src=\"https:\/\/erdalbora.com\/tr\/wp-content\/uploads\/sites\/3\/2020\/03\/infinity-symbol.jpg\" width=\"653\" height=\"392\" alt=\"\" class=\"wp-image-26 alignnone size-full\" style=\"display: block; margin-left: auto; margin-right: auto;\" srcset=\"https:\/\/erdalbora.com\/tr\/wp-content\/uploads\/sites\/3\/2020\/03\/infinity-symbol.jpg 653w, https:\/\/erdalbora.com\/tr\/wp-content\/uploads\/sites\/3\/2020\/03\/infinity-symbol-480x288.jpg 480w\" sizes=\"(min-width: 0px) and (max-width: 480px) 480px, (min-width: 481px) 653px, 100vw\" \/><\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p>\u00c7eviri i\u015flerine g\u00f6z gezdiriyordum. Yapabilece\u011fim i\u015fler var, ama yok motive olam\u0131yorum. Olmaya da \u00e7al\u0131\u015fmayaca\u011f\u0131m art\u0131k zaten. Ger\u00e7ekten yapmak istedi\u011fim \u015feylere odaklanaca\u011f\u0131m.<\/p>\n<p>Bug\u00fcn yurtd\u0131\u015f\u0131ndan bir ki\u015fiye ya\u015fam dan\u0131\u015fmanl\u0131\u011f\u0131 verdim. Nas\u0131l verebiliyorsun ya\u015fam dan\u0131\u015fmanl\u0131\u011f\u0131, bu ya\u015fam\u0131n bir uzmanl\u0131\u011f\u0131 m\u0131 var ki diyenler olabilir.. Var evet.. Ama kitaplardan \u00f6\u011frenilebilecek bir \u015fey de\u011fil.. Bir insan kendi ya\u015fam\u0131na nas\u0131l y\u00f6n verebiliyorsa, ba\u015fkas\u0131na da bu konuda yard\u0131mc\u0131 olabilir.<\/p>\n<p>Peki ben ya\u015fam\u0131ma nas\u0131l y\u00f6n veriyorum \u015fu an?<\/p>\n<p>Do\u011frudan yan\u0131tlamadan \u00f6nce, bu hep bir paradoks olmu\u015ftur ya\u015fam\u0131mda. Yani \u00f6nce bir \u015feyler yapaca\u011f\u0131z, yeterli hale gelece\u011fiz, ondan sonra her\u015fey g\u00fczel olacak gibi bir erteleme duygusu olmu\u015ftur \u00e7o\u011fu zaman\u00a0bende. Para kazanmak da b\u00f6yle bir duyguyla e\u015fle\u015fmi\u015ftir. Paray\u0131 yeterli olmak i\u00e7in kazanmaya \u00e7al\u0131\u015fmak. Yani \u00f6nce paray\u0131 kazanal\u0131m bir ondan sonra ya\u015far\u0131z ya\u015fam\u0131 gibi.\u00a0Bir k\u0131sm\u0131mda bu vard\u0131 hep san\u0131r\u0131m. Son y\u0131llarda para kazanmay\u0131 hep erteledim ger\u00e7i.. Hep direndim, motive olmad\u0131\u011f\u0131m \u015feyleri yapmad\u0131m. Yapamad\u0131m.<\/p>\n<p>E peki yerine ne yapaca\u011f\u0131z motive olmad\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131z\u00a0\u015feyleri yapm\u0131yoruz, para da kazanm\u0131yoruz.. Bu bilmecenin \u00e7\u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fcn\u00fc ben sevgide buluyorum. Bir anda \u00fcst bir boyuttan ya\u015famaya ba\u015flamakta hayat\u0131. Devrimci olmay\u0131, hayat\u0131 ve ya\u015fad\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131z her\u015feyi evrimle\u015ftirmeyi motive edici buluyorum.<\/p>\n<p>Mesela \u015fu an ya\u015fad\u0131\u011f\u0131m il\u00e7ede kimsenin yapmad\u0131\u011f\u0131 \u015fekilde bir do\u011fal meyve bah\u00e7esi yaratmaya \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131yorum. Ortada azot tutucu bir meyve a\u011fac\u0131 ve etraf\u0131nda alt\u0131gen \u015feklinde dizilmi\u015f 6 tane meyve a\u011fac\u0131ndan olu\u015fan birlikler ile tarlay\u0131 bir a\u011f \u015feklinde kaplamaya ba\u015flad\u0131m. Ama bunu yapmadan \u00f6nce de bir sene hi\u00e7bir\u015fey yapamad\u0131m hemen hemen tarlada. Gittim geldim hayvanlar\u0131 besledim. Bir sene ge\u00e7ti yakla\u015f\u0131k ve sonunda tarlan\u0131n zeminine korunga, beyaz yonca, tirfil, ar\u0131 otu tohumlar\u0131 atmaya ba\u015flad\u0131m ve istedi\u011fim b\u00f6lgeyi tohumlarla kaplad\u0131m. Bahara do\u011fru \u00e7i\u00e7ek tohumlar\u0131 da atmay\u0131 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcyorum. Bunlar da meyve a\u011fa\u00e7lar\u0131na destek verecek.\u00a0Meyve \u00e7ekirdekleri falan g\u00f6m\u00fcyorum \u015fimdi bir k\u0131sm\u0131n\u0131n yerini belirledi\u011fim a\u011fa\u00e7\u00a0konumlar\u0131na.\u00a0Fidan da\u00a0dikmeye niyetliyim. \u0130la\u00e7s\u0131z, g\u00fcbresiz, budamas\u0131z, tarlay\u0131 s\u00fcrmesiz, sulamas\u0131z bir meyve bah\u00e7esini sezgisel olarak ortaya \u00e7\u0131karmaya \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131yorum. Bir t\u00fcr yarat\u0131m s\u00fcreci asl\u0131nda bu.. \u0130la\u00e7l\u0131, a\u011fa\u00e7lar\u0131 rahats\u0131z etti\u011fini d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fc\u011f\u00fcm budamal\u0131, topraktaki canl\u0131lar\u0131 rahats\u0131z etti\u011fini d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fc\u011f\u00fcm topra\u011f\u0131 s\u00fcrmeli meyvecilik motive etmedi beni ve ben de bu yeni y\u00f6ntemi hayat\u0131n y\u00f6nlendirmeleriyle Internetten \u00f6\u011frendiklerimle harmanlay\u0131p kendi \u00f6zel ko\u015fullar\u0131mda ger\u00e7ekle\u015ftirmeye u\u011fra\u015f\u0131yorum. U\u011fra\u015fmaktan ziyade i\u00e7imden gelen bu ve enerjimin bir k\u0131sm\u0131n\u0131 buna vermekten hi\u00e7 gocunmuyorum. Ama ancak bu \u015fekilde i\u00e7imden geldi\u011fi tempoda yaparsam b\u00f6yle olaca\u011f\u0131n\u0131 da hissediyorum.<\/p>\n<p>Makaleler de yaz\u0131yorum ve sevgiyi payla\u015fmaya \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131yorum i\u00e7imden geldi\u011fi kadar. Bu aralarda kutumu da epey a\u00e7\u0131p g\u00fc\u00e7l\u00fc duygularla da kar\u015f\u0131la\u015ft\u0131m. Asl\u0131nda her seferinde daha derin bir karanl\u0131kla y\u00fczle\u015fiyorum ve her seferinde daha ayd\u0131nlanm\u0131\u015f olarak \u00e7\u0131k\u0131yorum i\u00e7inden. Hayat beni bu yolda ilerletiyor gibi geliyor bana. \u00c7\u00fcnk\u00fc sevgiye odaklan\u0131yorum i\u00e7imdeki ve hayat olduk\u00e7a iyi gitmeye ba\u015fl\u0131yor ve bir s\u00fcre sonra bir bak\u0131yorum daha dibe daha yo\u011fun negatif duygulara girmi\u015fim. Ama sonra beni a\u015fa\u011f\u0131 \u00e7eken d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnceyi ke\u015ffetmemle ve olgunla\u015fmamla sonu\u00e7lan\u0131yor ve asl\u0131nda belli bir s\u00fcre bo\u015f bulundu\u011fumu oda\u011f\u0131 beni a\u015fa\u011f\u0131 \u00e7eken d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnceye verdi\u011fimi ve sevgiden ay\u0131rd\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131\u00a0g\u00f6rebiliyorum. Yani i\u00e7imdeki sevgiyi ko\u015fullu yapan kal\u0131plar\u0131n fark\u0131na var\u0131yorum. Sanki sevgi benim i\u00e7imde yokmu\u015f onun olmas\u0131 i\u00e7in \u015funu \u015funu \u015funu yapmam gerekliymi\u015f diyen ve beni pe\u015flerinden ko\u015fturan ama asl\u0131nda yan\u0131lsama olan ve en fazla plastik mutluluklar veren kal\u0131plar.<\/p>\n<p>B\u00f6yle b\u00f6yle bir bak\u0131yorum ki sevgiden oda\u011f\u0131m\u0131 her ay\u0131rd\u0131\u011f\u0131mda asl\u0131nda bu kal\u0131plar\u0131n i\u00e7ine d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcyorum. \u015eimdilerde \u015fu belirginle\u015fmeye ba\u015flad\u0131. Ya hi\u00e7 ay\u0131rmazsam oda\u011f\u0131m\u0131? Ya hep devam ettirirsem? O zaman t\u00fcm kal\u0131plar eriyip bitecek; bu mant\u0131ksal olarak da, sezgisel olarak da, \u00f6\u011frendi\u011fim bilgiler a\u00e7\u0131s\u0131ndan da b\u00f6yle g\u00f6r\u00fcn\u00fcyor.<\/p>\n<p>S\u00fcper i\u015fte. B\u00f6yle olsun zaten. O y\u00fczden \u00e7eviriyi meviriyi yapm\u0131yorum. Paray\u0131 da umursam\u0131yorum. Ben g\u00f6nl\u00fcme odaklanaca\u011f\u0131m. Ve bu yolda y\u00fcr\u00fcyece\u011fim. Ba\u015fl\u0131k da bunun \u00fczerine zaten. Y\u00fcr\u00fcd\u00fck\u00e7e a\u00e7\u0131l\u0131yor, y\u00fcr\u00fcd\u00fck\u00e7e \u00f6\u011freniyorsun sevgiyi, sevgiye odakland\u0131k\u00e7a ve fark\u0131ndal\u0131k halinde ya\u015fad\u0131k\u00e7a \u00f6\u011freniyorsun, bir \u00f6nceki <a href=\"https:\/\/erdalbora.com\/tr\/2015\/gucun-karanlik-tarafindan-nasil-geri-gelinir\/\" target=\"_blank\" rel=\"noopener noreferrer\">Star Wars temal\u0131 yaz\u0131da<\/a> yazd\u0131\u011f\u0131m gibi oda ayd\u0131nlanmaya ve \u0131s\u0131nmaya ba\u015fl\u0131yor. Orada detayl\u0131 a\u00e7\u0131klamad\u0131\u011f\u0131m tek \u015fey, butona ne zaman basmay\u0131 b\u0131rakt\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131z\u0131n nas\u0131l fark\u0131na varaca\u011f\u0131m\u0131zd\u0131.\u00a0Yani sevgiye odaklanmay\u0131 nas\u0131l b\u0131rak\u0131yoruz bunun nas\u0131l fark\u0131na varaca\u011f\u0131z? Var\u0131yorsun bir \u015fekilde, suyun \u0131s\u0131nmaya ba\u015fl\u0131yor ve \u0131st\u0131rap \u00e7ekmeye ba\u015fl\u0131yorsun. Veya s\u0131k\u0131lmaya ba\u015fl\u0131yorsun. B\u00fcnye mi dersin, \u00dcst Bilin\u00e7 mi dersin, sistem seni bir \u015fekilde uyar\u0131yor. Fark\u0131na varmay\u0131 se\u00e7ersen h\u0131zl\u0131ca uyan\u0131yorsun ve yola devam ediyorsun.<\/p>\n<p>Sistem m\u00fckemmel \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131yor asl\u0131nda, seni senin i\u00e7in en hay\u0131rl\u0131 olana y\u00f6nlendiriyor, e\u011fer gitmiyorsan da kendini iyi hissetmemeye ba\u015fl\u0131yorsun, ya da en az\u0131ndan bir monotonluk s\u0131k\u0131nt\u0131s\u0131 gibi bir\u015feyler ya\u015f\u0131yorsun. Grinin ka\u00e7 tonu varsa art\u0131k onlardan birisi i\u015fte.. Bu duygular\u0131n\u0131 yarg\u0131lamadan oldu\u011fu gibi g\u00f6zlemleyebilirsen, bir bak\u0131ma kendini oldu\u011fun gibi sevmi\u015f oluyorsun, sevgide ilerlemi\u015f oluyorsun. Giderek de g\u00f6nl\u00fcn\u00fcn derinliklerindeki sevgi enerjisini ke\u015ffetmeye ba\u015fl\u0131yorsun. B\u00fct\u00fcn bunlar senin verdi\u011fin ruhsal efor ile oluyor. Ko\u015fu band\u0131ndaki efor testi gibi de\u011fil ama bilin\u00e7li olma \u00e7abas\u0131, uyanma \u00e7abas\u0131, ger\u00e7e\u011fi g\u00f6rme iradesi.<\/p>\n<p>Sevgi kendisini \u00f6\u011fretiyor. Bilin\u00e7 kendisini ke\u015ffediyor. Yarata yarata. G\u00f6lge ve \u0131\u015f\u0131k oyunlar\u0131 yapa yapa. Nas\u0131l arzu ederse o \u015fekilde. Ve sen busun i\u015fte.[\/et_pb_text][\/et_pb_column][\/et_pb_row][\/et_pb_section]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>[et_pb_section fb_built=&#8221;1&#8243; _builder_version=&#8221;3.22&#8243;][et_pb_row _builder_version=&#8221;3.25&#8243; background_size=&#8221;initial&#8221; background_position=&#8221;top_left&#8221; background_repeat=&#8221;repeat&#8221;][et_pb_column type=&#8221;4_4&#8243; _builder_version=&#8221;3.25&#8243; custom_padding=&#8221;|||&#8221; custom_padding__hover=&#8221;|||&#8221;][et_pb_text _builder_version=&#8221;4.4.1&#8243; background_size=&#8221;initial&#8221; background_position=&#8221;top_left&#8221; background_repeat=&#8221;repeat&#8221; hover_enabled=&#8221;0&#8243;]\u00a0 &nbsp; \u00c7eviri i\u015flerine g\u00f6z gezdiriyordum. Yapabilece\u011fim i\u015fler var, ama yok motive olam\u0131yorum. Olmaya da \u00e7al\u0131\u015fmayaca\u011f\u0131m art\u0131k zaten. Ger\u00e7ekten yapmak istedi\u011fim \u015feylere odaklanaca\u011f\u0131m. Bug\u00fcn yurtd\u0131\u015f\u0131ndan bir ki\u015fiye ya\u015fam dan\u0131\u015fmanl\u0131\u011f\u0131 verdim. Nas\u0131l verebiliyorsun ya\u015fam dan\u0131\u015fmanl\u0131\u011f\u0131, bu ya\u015fam\u0131n bir uzmanl\u0131\u011f\u0131 m\u0131 var [&hellip;]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"_acf_changed":false,"_et_pb_use_builder":"on","_et_pb_old_content":"<em>[box type=\"info\"] Yaz\u0131y\u0131 okumadan \u00f6nce e\u011fer hen\u00fcz yapmad\u0131ysan\u0131z <a href=\"http:\/\/tr.erdalbora.com\/2017\/sitedeki-yazilar-hakkinda\/\">bu yaz\u0131ya<\/a> bir kez g\u00f6z atman\u0131z\u0131 \u00f6neririm.[\/box]&nbsp;<\/em>\n\n<img class=\" wp-image-1123 aligncenter\" src=\"http:\/\/tr.erdalbora.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/sites\/4\/2015\/12\/infinity-symbol.jpg\" alt=\"infinity-symbol.jpg\" width=\"844\" height=\"507\">\n\n\u00c7eviri i\u015flerine g\u00f6z gezdiriyordum. Yapabilece\u011fim i\u015fler var, ama yok motive olam\u0131yorum. Olmaya da \u00e7al\u0131\u015fmayaca\u011f\u0131m art\u0131k zaten. Ger\u00e7ekten yapmak istedi\u011fim \u015feylere odaklanaca\u011f\u0131m.\n\nBug\u00fcn yurtd\u0131\u015f\u0131ndan bir ki\u015fiye ya\u015fam dan\u0131\u015fmanl\u0131\u011f\u0131 verdim. Nas\u0131l verebiliyorsun ya\u015fam dan\u0131\u015fmanl\u0131\u011f\u0131, bu ya\u015fam\u0131n bir uzmanl\u0131\u011f\u0131 m\u0131 var ki diyenler olabilir.. Var evet.. Ama kitaplardan \u00f6\u011frenilebilecek bir \u015fey de\u011fil.. Bir insan kendi ya\u015fam\u0131na nas\u0131l y\u00f6n verebiliyorsa, ba\u015fkas\u0131na da bu konuda yard\u0131mc\u0131 olabilir.\n\nPeki ben ya\u015fam\u0131ma nas\u0131l y\u00f6n veriyorum \u015fu an?\n\nDo\u011frudan yan\u0131tlamadan \u00f6nce, bu hep bir paradoks olmu\u015ftur ya\u015fam\u0131mda. Yani \u00f6nce bir \u015feyler yapaca\u011f\u0131z, yeterli hale gelece\u011fiz, ondan sonra her\u015fey g\u00fczel olacak gibi bir erteleme duygusu olmu\u015ftur \u00e7o\u011fu zaman&nbsp;bende. Para kazanmak da b\u00f6yle bir duyguyla e\u015fle\u015fmi\u015ftir. Paray\u0131 yeterli olmak i\u00e7in kazanmaya \u00e7al\u0131\u015fmak. Yani \u00f6nce paray\u0131 kazanal\u0131m bir ondan sonra ya\u015far\u0131z ya\u015fam\u0131 gibi.&nbsp;Bir k\u0131sm\u0131mda bu vard\u0131 hep san\u0131r\u0131m. Son y\u0131llarda para kazanmay\u0131 hep erteledim ger\u00e7i.. Hep direndim, motive olmad\u0131\u011f\u0131m \u015feyleri yapmad\u0131m. Yapamad\u0131m.\n\nE peki yerine ne yapaca\u011f\u0131z motive olmad\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131z&nbsp;\u015feyleri yapm\u0131yoruz, para da kazanm\u0131yoruz.. Bu bilmecenin \u00e7\u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fcn\u00fc ben sevgide buluyorum. Bir anda \u00fcst bir boyuttan ya\u015famaya ba\u015flamakta hayat\u0131. Devrimci olmay\u0131, hayat\u0131 ve ya\u015fad\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131z her\u015feyi evrimle\u015ftirmeyi motive edici buluyorum.\n\nMesela \u015fu an ya\u015fad\u0131\u011f\u0131m il\u00e7ede kimsenin yapmad\u0131\u011f\u0131 \u015fekilde bir do\u011fal meyve bah\u00e7esi yaratmaya \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131yorum. Ortada azot tutucu bir meyve a\u011fac\u0131 ve etraf\u0131nda alt\u0131gen \u015feklinde dizilmi\u015f 6 tane meyve a\u011fac\u0131ndan olu\u015fan birlikler ile tarlay\u0131 bir a\u011f \u015feklinde kaplamaya ba\u015flad\u0131m. Ama bunu yapmadan \u00f6nce de bir sene hi\u00e7bir\u015fey yapamad\u0131m hemen hemen tarlada. Gittim geldim hayvanlar\u0131 besledim. Bir sene ge\u00e7ti yakla\u015f\u0131k ve sonunda tarlan\u0131n zeminine korunga, beyaz yonca, tirfil, ar\u0131 otu tohumlar\u0131 atmaya ba\u015flad\u0131m ve istedi\u011fim b\u00f6lgeyi tohumlarla kaplad\u0131m. Bahara do\u011fru \u00e7i\u00e7ek tohumlar\u0131 da atmay\u0131 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcyorum. Bunlar da meyve a\u011fa\u00e7lar\u0131na destek verecek.&nbsp;Meyve \u00e7ekirdekleri falan g\u00f6m\u00fcyorum \u015fimdi bir k\u0131sm\u0131n\u0131n yerini belirledi\u011fim a\u011fa\u00e7&nbsp;konumlar\u0131na.&nbsp;Fidan da&nbsp;dikmeye niyetliyim. \u0130la\u00e7s\u0131z, g\u00fcbresiz, budamas\u0131z, tarlay\u0131 s\u00fcrmesiz, sulamas\u0131z bir meyve bah\u00e7esini sezgisel olarak ortaya \u00e7\u0131karmaya \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131yorum. Bir t\u00fcr yarat\u0131m s\u00fcreci asl\u0131nda bu.. \u0130la\u00e7l\u0131, a\u011fa\u00e7lar\u0131 rahats\u0131z etti\u011fini d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fc\u011f\u00fcm budamal\u0131, topraktaki canl\u0131lar\u0131 rahats\u0131z etti\u011fini d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fc\u011f\u00fcm topra\u011f\u0131 s\u00fcrmeli meyvecilik motive etmedi beni ve ben de bu yeni y\u00f6ntemi hayat\u0131n y\u00f6nlendirmeleriyle Internetten \u00f6\u011frendiklerimle harmanlay\u0131p kendi \u00f6zel ko\u015fullar\u0131mda ger\u00e7ekle\u015ftirmeye u\u011fra\u015f\u0131yorum. U\u011fra\u015fmaktan ziyade i\u00e7imden gelen bu ve enerjimin bir k\u0131sm\u0131n\u0131 buna vermekten hi\u00e7 gocunmuyorum. Ama ancak bu \u015fekilde i\u00e7imden geldi\u011fi tempoda yaparsam b\u00f6yle olaca\u011f\u0131n\u0131 da hissediyorum.\n\nMakaleler de yaz\u0131yorum ve sevgiyi payla\u015fmaya \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131yorum i\u00e7imden geldi\u011fi kadar. Bu aralarda kutumu da epey a\u00e7\u0131p g\u00fc\u00e7l\u00fc duygularla da kar\u015f\u0131la\u015ft\u0131m. Asl\u0131nda her seferinde daha derin bir karanl\u0131kla y\u00fczle\u015fiyorum ve her seferinde daha ayd\u0131nlanm\u0131\u015f olarak \u00e7\u0131k\u0131yorum i\u00e7inden. Hayat beni bu yolda ilerletiyor gibi geliyor bana. \u00c7\u00fcnk\u00fc sevgiye odaklan\u0131yorum i\u00e7imdeki ve hayat olduk\u00e7a iyi gitmeye ba\u015fl\u0131yor ve bir s\u00fcre sonra bir bak\u0131yorum daha dibe daha yo\u011fun negatif duygulara girmi\u015fim. Ama sonra beni a\u015fa\u011f\u0131 \u00e7eken d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnceyi ke\u015ffetmemle ve olgunla\u015fmamla sonu\u00e7lan\u0131yor ve asl\u0131nda belli bir s\u00fcre bo\u015f bulundu\u011fumu oda\u011f\u0131 beni a\u015fa\u011f\u0131 \u00e7eken d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnceye verdi\u011fimi ve sevgiden ay\u0131rd\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131&nbsp;g\u00f6rebiliyorum. Yani i\u00e7imdeki sevgiyi ko\u015fullu yapan kal\u0131plar\u0131n fark\u0131na var\u0131yorum. Sanki sevgi benim i\u00e7imde yokmu\u015f onun olmas\u0131 i\u00e7in \u015funu \u015funu \u015funu yapmam gerekliymi\u015f diyen ve beni pe\u015flerinden ko\u015fturan ama asl\u0131nda yan\u0131lsama olan ve en fazla plastik mutluluklar veren kal\u0131plar.\n\nB\u00f6yle b\u00f6yle bir bak\u0131yorum ki sevgiden oda\u011f\u0131m\u0131 her ay\u0131rd\u0131\u011f\u0131mda asl\u0131nda bu kal\u0131plar\u0131n i\u00e7ine d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcyorum. \u015eimdilerde \u015fu belirginle\u015fmeye ba\u015flad\u0131. Ya hi\u00e7 ay\u0131rmazsam oda\u011f\u0131m\u0131? Ya hep devam ettirirsem? O zaman t\u00fcm kal\u0131plar eriyip bitecek; bu mant\u0131ksal olarak da, sezgisel olarak da, \u00f6\u011frendi\u011fim bilgiler a\u00e7\u0131s\u0131ndan da b\u00f6yle g\u00f6r\u00fcn\u00fcyor.\n\nS\u00fcper i\u015fte. B\u00f6yle olsun zaten. O y\u00fczden \u00e7eviriyi meviriyi yapm\u0131yorum. Paray\u0131 da umursam\u0131yorum. Ben g\u00f6nl\u00fcme odaklanaca\u011f\u0131m. Ve bu yolda y\u00fcr\u00fcyece\u011fim. Ba\u015fl\u0131k da bunun \u00fczerine zaten. Y\u00fcr\u00fcd\u00fck\u00e7e a\u00e7\u0131l\u0131yor, y\u00fcr\u00fcd\u00fck\u00e7e \u00f6\u011freniyorsun sevgiyi, sevgiye odakland\u0131k\u00e7a ve fark\u0131ndal\u0131k halinde ya\u015fad\u0131k\u00e7a \u00f6\u011freniyorsun, bir \u00f6nceki <a href=\"https:\/\/erdalbora.wordpress.com\/2015\/11\/30\/gucun-karanlik-tarafindan-nasil-geri-gelinir\/\" target=\"_blank\" rel=\"noopener noreferrer\">Star Wars temal\u0131 yaz\u0131da <\/a>yazd\u0131\u011f\u0131m gibi oda ayd\u0131nlanmaya ve \u0131s\u0131nmaya ba\u015fl\u0131yor. Orada detayl\u0131 a\u00e7\u0131klamad\u0131\u011f\u0131m tek \u015fey, butona ne zaman basmay\u0131 b\u0131rakt\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131z\u0131n nas\u0131l fark\u0131na varaca\u011f\u0131m\u0131zd\u0131.&nbsp;Yani sevgiye odaklanmay\u0131 nas\u0131l b\u0131rak\u0131yoruz bunun nas\u0131l fark\u0131na varaca\u011f\u0131z? Var\u0131yorsun bir \u015fekilde, suyun \u0131s\u0131nmaya ba\u015fl\u0131yor ve \u0131st\u0131rap \u00e7ekmeye ba\u015fl\u0131yorsun. Veya s\u0131k\u0131lmaya ba\u015fl\u0131yorsun. B\u00fcnye mi dersin, \u00dcst Bilin\u00e7 mi dersin, sistem seni bir \u015fekilde uyar\u0131yor. Fark\u0131na varmay\u0131 se\u00e7ersen h\u0131zl\u0131ca uyan\u0131yorsun ve yola devam ediyorsun.\n\nSistem m\u00fckemmel \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131yor asl\u0131nda, seni senin i\u00e7in en hay\u0131rl\u0131 olana y\u00f6nlendiriyor, e\u011fer gitmiyorsan da kendini iyi hissetmemeye ba\u015fl\u0131yorsun, ya da en az\u0131ndan bir monotonluk s\u0131k\u0131nt\u0131s\u0131 gibi bir\u015feyler ya\u015f\u0131yorsun. Grinin ka\u00e7 tonu varsa art\u0131k onlardan birisi i\u015fte.. Bu duygular\u0131n\u0131 yarg\u0131lamadan oldu\u011fu gibi g\u00f6zlemleyebilirsen, bir bak\u0131ma kendini oldu\u011fun gibi sevmi\u015f oluyorsun, sevgide ilerlemi\u015f oluyorsun. Giderek de g\u00f6nl\u00fcn\u00fcn derinliklerindeki sevgi enerjisini ke\u015ffetmeye ba\u015fl\u0131yorsun. B\u00fct\u00fcn bunlar senin verdi\u011fin ruhsal efor ile oluyor. Ko\u015fu band\u0131ndaki efor testi gibi de\u011fil ama bilin\u00e7li olma \u00e7abas\u0131, uyanma \u00e7abas\u0131, ger\u00e7e\u011fi g\u00f6rme iradesi.\n\nSevgi kendisini \u00f6\u011fretiyor. Bilin\u00e7 kendisini ke\u015ffediyor. Yarata yarata. G\u00f6lge ve \u0131\u015f\u0131k oyunlar\u0131 yapa yapa. Nas\u0131l arzu ederse o \u015fekilde. Ve sen busun i\u015fte.\n\n&nbsp;\n\n&nbsp;\n\n&nbsp;","_et_gb_content_width":"1080","_jetpack_memberships_contains_paid_content":false,"footnotes":""},"categories":[3],"tags":[19,20,21,24,54,55,56,60,64,90,93,98,102,105,110,114,123,125,219],"class_list":["post-1076","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-makale","tag-arayis","tag-arinma","tag-arzu","tag-aydinlanma","tag-farkindalik","tag-gercek","tag-golge-kisim","tag-hakikat","tag-ilahi-sevgi","tag-odakta-devamlilik-2","tag-olgunlasma","tag-ozgurluk","tag-para","tag-ruhsal-gelisim","tag-sevgi","tag-star-wars","tag-ust-bilinc","tag-uyanis","tag-yasam-danismanligi"],"acf":[],"jetpack_featured_media_url":"","jetpack-related-posts":[{"id":59793,"url":"https:\/\/erdalbora.com\/tr\/2023\/hayatin-temel-gercegi-ve-bu-gercegin-farkindaliginda-yasamak-hakkinda-bir-yazi\/","url_meta":{"origin":1076,"position":0},"title":"Hayat\u0131n Temel Ger\u00e7e\u011fi ve Bu Ger\u00e7e\u011fin Fark\u0131ndal\u0131\u011f\u0131nda Ya\u015famak Hakk\u0131nda Bir Yaz\u0131","author":"Erdal Bora","date":"19 \u015eubat 2023","format":false,"excerpt":"","rel":"","context":"&quot;Makale&quot; 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