The vow approach I previously posted did not go as I wanted to go. I couldn’t apply all the 10 steps continuously. I could say that it even backfired, and I was frustrated and I felt despair. Some weeks later, I started a new approach. This one is a non pressuring approach. I just try to feel the love in my heart. I just choose it. I focus on this Love. I don’t do this as a duty, as an obligation on my shoulders. I want to feel free. Not feel obligated to fulfill some divine duty. I want to live my own nature. Not fight against a portion of myself. This is like a holistic approach. Whole-istic approach. An approach of becoming whole again. Of integrity. By treating myself as already whole in this moment, not rejecting any part of myself. By focusing on unconditional love, by focusing on the Spiritual Heart, and living whatever comes through my experience without fighting with it. And even if a fighting is going on, it is not my focus, my focus is the love. It is even not against fighting. Words may seem short to describe it. But it can be said that this Love I focus on is not against anything. It encompasses everything, the focusing on it can coexist with anything, any experience. Isn’t it God I seek? Can God be non-existent in any experience at all? No. God if it is true God should be able to exist in ALL experiences, in any and all anything. My approach is to focus on God through the Spiritual Heart.