I stopped this pattern to fulfill a promise. I gathered myself, and started focusing on the Spiritual Heart again. After 2 hours, with a walk in the open and meditative effort, I had regained my center, and met with my young friends. My centeredness grew stronger throughout the night as we shared friendship and I took care to focus on the Spiritual Heart.
So.. this is an ongoing challenge.. as I focus on the Spiritual Heart, I can feel more and more unconditional love, but also, when I lose this focus, old patterns surface and kick in, and every time I learn something, and one more thing to let go of is revealed. But the method to let go of is always the same. Keep focusing on the gateway of Love and Light, the Spiritual Heart.
How I will continue fasting, the following days will show. I am not currently fully devoted to keeping my attention on the Spiritual Heart. Full devotion.. it would be so very good if I can achieve that.