I think whatever I say, as long as you don’t look at your situation and take responsibility of everything in your experience, you won’t experience the freedom you seek. Just realize the impossibility of answering this question logically. To give you an exhaustive...
Topic: Authority
When nothing seems to work out in life, what is the one thing you look up to?
Don’t look up to any ‘thing’. That is where the problem starts. The Self is not an object. Do not think that happiness is in some thing. It is not in a thing. It is inherent. It is your true nature.